I'm starting to feel my old self again....
I will be blogging back on this page of mine as from NOW :)
Have really missed this blog where I can speak to those who understand...
To those who are on the same journey as myself, no matter which part...beginning, middle and....on going like me!
ONE of the reason I stopped blogging here was because I was struggling with fear...
This fear took me into a black hole, but I've spent days looking at things and have crawled right out of that dark hole and back into the sunshine....
That's where I'm now....in the sunshine.
I watched a program a short while back about a woman who suffers from MS
She was diagnosed over 35 years ago, in her 20's
Slowly over time she lost all movement and is now in a wheelchair, unable to do anything for herself...
She battles to speak, she cant use her hands....
Seeing this and knowing that this is where I could end up
Knocked me terribly...
Now more than anything else, I know I want to fight this...
and fight it I'm going to do with every cell in my body.
I will do whatever it takes
I will stop eating foods that are not good for me
I will make sure in the end I can say...
I DID EVERYTHING I COULD...
And then accept what the future holds for me.
way to crawl out of that hole,sister!!!!
ReplyDeleteyou are too much of a fighter to stop doing something your situation!
keep in the sunshine,walk in the light,stay strong and stay focused!
sending big hugs from the states!
Awesome. you're my hero!
ReplyDeleteGlad to see you are back Marcy!
ReplyDeleteYou're a fighter and I'm sure MS won't get a grip on you as you fight it so hard and do everything in your power to stay healthy!
You came back on this blog at the right time as I'm going to need you the next months while I fight my own battle with weight.
You are absolutely and positively an inspiration!!
ReplyDeleteMarcy, you are absolutely amazing and very brave no matter what. It's not easy living with MS and nobody can blame you for going into a dark place for a moment. It's very human. I am very glad you are back. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteYeaaaaa, you're back! I've been in a few of 'those' holes myself over my life and always good to bask in the sunshine!!! Stay away from anything that's going to be a negative and FOCUS on nothing but postiive (easy to get sucked in)! You pretty much ROCK - hang in there & here's a (((HUG)))!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you are back and that you managed to climb out of that dark hole - hugs.
ReplyDeleteIt's so good to see you again! My Dad has MS so I understand the struggles, but the answer is definitely to stay positive and do everything in your power to take care of your health. Proactive is always the way to go! :)
ReplyDeleteIt to makes me nervous that one day my dad might end up the same way. So far the docs. have been wrong with there time line. Just keep doing what you are doing! You know your body! Glad you are back!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you are taking the fear of MS and turning it into a positive for yourself! The only thing we can do is do our best. Whatever else happens we have to accept it. Your doing a great job Marcelle, don't go to the dark place nothing good is there. I know.
ReplyDeleteI'm going to share something with you that I am hoping will send you the message I am trying to get across.
ReplyDeleteA few years back when I was working a lady that was my superior was a runner. I was in awe of her because I would of never thought I had what it takes to do what she does. She would talk about it and it meant nothing to me, my fat self told me "good for her". and that's as far as it went.
Few months has passed and she started talking less and less about running. She seemed really sad and her food choices changed. She was eating more processed foods and no longer spoke of running.
After that we had a staff meeting where she informed us that she has been diagnosed with MS, and that is where the "pity train" started. I am not making light of the disease however she used it in her favour to be a reason to give up.
Years later she is in a wheel chair, as you described above.
When ever I read your posts on MS I am in awe because you Marcelle are the complete opposite of her. You have taken this illness and embraced it made it into a reason to continue to get into the best shape of your life, and not only that but to keep fighting for what's important.
We never know where our path will lead us Marcelle, but if I could put myself in your place for a brief moment, if this is where your illness lead me I would think that you did EVERYTHING possible to fight it. You have not given up, you have flipped your whole eating, working out and spirits around to fight this until you can't fight no more.
Marcelle you inspire me everyday to be a better me. Keep fighting and hold your head high because you are amazing!
oh and one last thing, because I'm getting writters cramp :-).
ReplyDeleteI think you are more than ready for the half marathon Marcelle. You are very fit. Training doesn't just consist of the distance but rather strength as well, I know you do weight training. But even more so than that I believe in my heart that getting across that finish line is 90% mental. If you are in a great place mentally you can do anything. Not to take away from the training I have put in and all the hard work, but if I for a moment thought, I'm never going to be able to that, I probably wont! With the right frame of mind anything is possible.