Friday...Ran with JOY

Out there in the distance is where I run while living here....such a beautiful place but full of hills...and all road running which I am not used to anymore as I do mainly trail running in Germany...

Today I gave myself permission to walk...with a little running....So when I headed out the door this morning I felt happy as I knew I had taken the pressure off myself and was going to run with JOY....

I ran when I felt good and walked when I felt I needed to...it was wonderful not having to prove something to myself....I know I can run....I've been running all of summer and for two years in total now...so what if I need to slow down for a while, I'll soon get back to my running self...

So while running today I felt the JOY in my heart, I loved every step I took. I did interval running from lamp post to lamp post, from tree to tree...anything...kept myself entertained all the way...

Running home for the last km ~ I wanted to jump up and down ....all of a sudden I thought

OM Word...I am feeling good, I have my rhythm again...this feels like ME

I could feel the biggest smile on my face...I was filled with the JOY of running...

Today I ran 6.1km

In 46 mins

Burned 575 calories

35% fat

HR ~ 121-174

After my run I slipped into tights and a top and drove my daughter down to the shops

She is finding it too difficult to drive as she gets lower pain...as baby comes on Monday

I walked into the shop and soon noticed this man just standing looking at me...

I carried on doing my thing...

The next thing he is standing next to me and in Afrikaans asks me what sport I do...

I spoke back in English so he asked * Are you a cyclist? *

I told him no...I was a dancer all my life and now a runner

He said * Oh a runner, its nice to be fit hey? *

I smiled nodded and walked away.

Its these big calves of mine that made him think I was a cyclist I'm sure....hehe

Friday Quick Update

I wanted to do a quick update this morning to let you know today for the first time in a while I feel good...I feel my energy has returned, I did not wake up feeling ill nor exhausted...

I plan to do a walk/run later today after helping the cleaner with the housework..

It feels great to feel like * ME * again, and I wanted to share it with you....

Have a good Friday..Will update my blog once I have been out for my walk/Run and do plan on taking it easy....like I said yesterday, I give myself permission to take it slowly...

Thursday ~ lack of energy

Found this spider in my bedroom the other day.....sitting on the ceiling ~ I hate spiders and seems there are many here as the next day we found another one...

I have taken two days off from training since my last run where I felt so bad.

I read everyone's comments and see that this is not unusual at all...

So am feeling a lot more positive about the next run as I was fearing it...fearing feeling bad and then throwing in the towel and losing something I have been so passionate about.

The next time I run I will make sure I walk and run...start over again....its okay...I am going to give myself permission to start all over again if that is what my body is asking for.

My eating has been Clean....no problems in that department...

I do miss my food routine that I had created for myself back in Germany...

Here I have to try and test products...

and then some cost such a lot i am leaving them out of my diet.

My skin is bad...pimples are breaking out on my chin...put it down to hormones

Its that time....the dreaded time which could be why I lack so much energy as well...

Oh I could think of a million things as to why I am feeling this way,but don't really know what it is...so I keep looking for what is making me feel this way.

I am going to walk run tomorrow....

Check up on me!!!

Wednesday ~ A struggle

Yesterday I took the day off....I was exhausted.....spent the whole morning in bed sleeping...I got up...tried to do a few things, but landed up back in bed....by the afternoon I felt a lot better...I did wake up with a sore throat in the morning, feel as if I am still struggling with this * virus * which started a month ago.

I am still tracking my foods and eating clean...

I bought flaxseeds and Omega 3 mixed....shew, what a horrible smell and taste...

Will finish it as it cost a fortune...but yuck!!!

Today I went out for a run....I felt I needed to run again as my last run was on Sunday

I started off ~ all down hill...

Then flat...

Then all uphill.....

uphill, uphill and more uphill...

I started running from lamp post to lamp post ~ then walking from lamp post to lamp post

anything to keep me running...

while out there today my head told myself

* Marcelle, enough, its time to stop running *

I feel like a new runner, like I did when I started running over two years ago..

My body feels so out of sync ~ my legs, feet and body are not working together...

I have no idea what is going on, if this is normal...

I'm feeling so despondent right now

I want to throw in the towel...but am fighting it...

I want the love for running to return...

I want to run and love it, I want to feel good and not that each step I take is a struggle.

Today I ran 5.7km in 40 mins

I did 5km in 33 mins...then walked up the very steep hills home....that took up a lot of my time.

Burned 605 calories, which is a lot for me for the time, as I usually burn 500 calories in an hour.

My HR was 134 - 151 and only 25% fat...

My results the last month compared to the last 6 months shows me that something is up....my HR is much higher when I run and also I am burning a lot more calories for a shorter period...and gaining weight.

Pink Dress Run

Today I participated in Fran's Virtual blog run...the only rule was ~ Wear Pink.

It was so very windy out....I sat indoors wondering if I should or just leave it, but felt I had committed to this challenge and was going to see it through...

I ran 5km within the complex I am staying...

Over sand dunes and up steep hills...

With crazy windy blowing from all directions.

I did 5km in 36 mins....considering everything I am happy with that time

Burned 557 calories

HR 125-145